10/29/25 Mood: Okay!
Hey guys another part to my little diary thingy. This week has been good! I accidentally switched to linux when i meant to dual boot which was REALLY awkward and i didnt know what to really do but im kinda just going with it now! Its alot of fun learning how all this stuff works day to day! and I feel like im learning more as time goes on. I also have been meeting alot of new people which is really cool and i really appreciate that it kinda feels like life is on the up and up! Nicole isnt doing really that well but she is closer to me now which is like, amazing? its what i wanted literally this whole time and the idea that shes a LITTLE bit closer to me compared to before is fantastic and I really find myself excited for the future again and this time im not scared of it. For once in my life the idea of the future dosent petrify me anymore and I find myself looking with my head held up high for once and im just relishing in that feeling. Ive also been trying to eat better, trying to get my whole stress eating thing under control because it really has been out of control in the past few month and ive been taking a journal to write down my eating habits to make sure i dont overeat which is quite nice and has been giving me alot of perspective on what I eat and when. I really hope soon I can also get my HAM Radio liscense done so i can start broadcasting around! I feel like thats such a thrilling prospect! I am proud of myself and that is really golden to me.
10/23/25 - Mood: Tired
Hey guys its my Ashiepoo I wanted to make a lil blog because I wanted a place where I could really talk honestly about myself without feeling like im intruding on peoples time. I have been good this week I wont lie, I have gotten an apointment done with the driving school to go and take my drivers test and that makes me SUPER nervous, the idea of taking a test will always mortify me in so many ways. I want to try and get it cause it would make my momma proud and then I could go see Nicole which would be a dream come true for me. I really want to, really I do, Im tired alot, been sleeping in more and thats kinda frustrating, I am getting myself a day planner so I can write shit down day to day. I really wanna get my shit together for nicole, I really do, the idea of like not having my shit together for her is mortifying, I dont want to be some lazy bum who she ends up getting tired of, this butch gotta WORK. I have to get a job soon and that also is crazy. Scary times are ahead for doggy kind. Im sipping on some peach tea and just trying to wake up. But even that can be hard these days. Im okay, im just tired I think. On a side note I am trying to get my ham radio technician license which is fucking DOPE! Im really excited for that! I wanna get more into it so I can better protect my family in case of emergency :3. I am still writing in my server alot of security guides and they have really filled me with alot of joy as I get to tell people about stuff I love including opsec and privacy on the internet!